December 16, 2012

I need you.

I think it's safe to say that everyone is struggling with wrapping their heads around what took place in Connecticut on Friday morning.
Even friends of mine who so often "stir the pot" on social media are posting how saddened they are.
How shocked.
And horrified.
Some friends avoiding social media all together.
I know I am being sporadic with my own use and posts. 

You see, I battle depression.
I have wanted to post about it for so long, but never knew what to say.
I still don't know what to say, other than I was diagnosed at eighteen years old and have tried making sense of my mental illness ever since.
So many posts this weekend have mentioned mental illness and its' relation to the events on Friday.
I want to defend myself.

I get really, really sad sometimes.
Typically triggered by something miniscule, I have bouts of emotional struggles that affect everyone around me.
Sometimes I become too quiet.
Or show my sadness with crying.
Or I feel completely sick and struggle doing normal things like laundry.
Okay, I always struggle with laundry, but you get the point.
Sometimes life is just hard for me.
And that doesn't make me a bad person.
Or a risk to others.

And sometimes, when I turn my back during one of my low points, what I really need is for someone to turn to.
This means more than just physically hugging me and telling me you're here for me.
Sedric is really good about that.
I mean, helping me find a place to feel safe emotionally.
A place where happy things can be found.
At any time of day.
No matter where I am in the world.

So here's the plan:
Join me on Instagram with the hashtag #itshappyhere
Feel free to tag your old photos.
Or other photos that you come across in your feed that make you smile.
Simply add the hashtag to any photo that makes you happy.
While on Instagram, we can then all click on the hashtag and see happiness.
We can connect on social media during times when people are only posting things that are hard to read.
We can escape to a tiny corner where we are reminded of the good things.
Of the sweet things in life.
Once more people participate, I will feature some favorite photos from that hashtag here every week.
Eventually, those posts will be linked to a button on my sidebar, and our little happy place will be accessible on the internet as well.

I'm hoping my #itshappyhere project will become a movement- allowing friendships to form and calmness to be felt.
I would love for you to join me during this time of struggle and sadness.
I need you.


PS- This post has disappeared and reappeared with terrible HTML that cannot be edited no matter what I do.
Please forgive this craziness.
Another flaw in this life of mine that I hope you can accept.  


  1. Ok, so blogger hates me too and ate my 1st comment. I too struggle with depression. It's not been a good few months for me recently. Thank you for sharing. It let's others know we are not alone. Plus I LOVE the idea of giving a 'happy place'. So I'm off to tag a few photos!

  2. Love the idea Kimmie!! As soon as I can pry my cell away from my son I will tag away!

    Both my grandmother and brother suffer from depression, although now both are doing really well.

    I pray that your sad times are few and far between. And please know that I am here for you if you ever need a safe place to chat about anything. No judging and complete confidence.

    Love ya!


  3. Thank you for sharing. I guess we're all struggling to understand what happened....

    Not sure if this quote helps you, but it did help me:

    "When I was a boy and I would see scary things in the news, my mother would say to me, 'Look for the helpers. You will always find people who are helping.' To this day, especially in times of 'disaster,' I remember my mother's words and I am always comforted by realizing that there are still so many helpers- so many caring people in this world." ~ Mr. Rogers

    Also, if you wanted to somehow reach out to the community, you could send an Evergram or letter to the school. More details here:

  4. I love your idea!! What a great way to help everyone who is needing a moment of happy in a day that may not feel that way. Thank you for being so honest and open with your own struggles too!

  5. I've found the hardest thing about struggling with depression is that when you need people the most is also when it's the hardest to ask for help. stay strong, friend, and thanks for your honesty. there are more of us than we realize.

  6. I love this and I love your idea. I also struggle with depression, and when things like this happen it makes me feel like I want to crawl into a hole and never come out. It is scary to say the least. I often want to feel like this world is a safe place and I hate when things happen that make me feel like I can't trust my surroundings.

    Thank you for being honest about this. I'm sure many more people than just you and I have a hard time hearing about events like this.

  7. I'm in. I'll start tagging now ;)

  8. Such an awesome idea Kimmie!

    Thank you for sharing your heart Lady.

    I am off to tag a pic or two on IG.

    hugs, Nichole

  9. Love this idea and would love to take part! xo JA

  10. Kimmie, you are such an inspiration to me. I think you have this light that beams off you and to create this project will potentially help so many...I don't have instagram yet...but I am hoping for an iPhone for christmas so as soon as I have it, I will join your cause! Keep being you :) Xoxo Robin

  11. Love this so much. I need it so much right now! I've been a mess over this whole thing!

  12. :) Love this idea! You and I need to chat :)

  13. I struggle with this as well. It is really really REALLY hard to deal with sometimes. I find myself feeling like I"m crashing and burning... I think this is such a great idea and will really help bring more gratitude and happiness. Thanks for starting it!

  14. Thank you for this! Great idea!
    My husband struggles with depression too... stay strong!
    Now of to tag some IG pics!

  15. I am following on instagram.. I pray for peace and happiness for you.

  16. So I think blogger ate my comment. :/
    I struggle with PPD and has taken me awhile to admit to myself let alone say it out loud. Thank you for sharing your struggle. It makes it easier to say knowing there are others out there too. If that makes any sense.

    I will be following along on IG as mommynpink!

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  19. I don't think the rally is against mental illness, but rather the lack of options/treatment. Seeking help when you know you need it is important.

  20. This is a great idea! There is so much tragedy every day, everyone needs something to help them smile!

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  22. What a wonderful idea!! I'm in. Going to follow you now on Twitter as well as GFC. I'm coming to you via Yours Truly...
    This was def a great post for me to read today. =)
    I'm dealing with the same issues..

  23. Thank you for such a great idea! I feel like I've been living in a fog for the last few days, and am just now coming across this post. I have struggled with depression for a long time, and go in and out of it - sometimes with the help of meds, sometimes not - but the holidays are a specifically trying time for me, especially with our recent move to Cali. Last Christmas I was just mad (although also excited) about being away from the people I cared about during the holidays. This Christmas, I have found myself crying every day, and being so sensitive to stupid stuff, and I'm sure it's because reality has really set in and I'm away from almost everyone I know. I have found myself being bitchy, sad, angry, introverted, and trying to shut myself off from the world. The Newtown, CT tragedy only magnified these feelings and actions, and really put me in a funk, especially because so much of my hubby's family lives very close to Newtown. Thanks to you, I now have somewhere to go when I need to feel happy and be uplifted. Thank you for being you.

  24. thank you for this post. I know exactly how you feel. I too suffer with depression. I'm 27 and was diagnosed 10 years ago. I think it is something I will have to learn to live with for the rest of my life, as it never goes. There are days when i'm great, normal and really happy, and there can be other days where I just feel like crying for no reason and struggle to do everyday thing, even getting out off bed and getting dress can be really hard. But the hardest thing is not really having a reason for the way I feel. M<y husband still doesn't compleately understand and with what happened last Friday As totally shocked me, I keep crying and feel like breaking down just think about what if it was one of my kids, I'm scared of sending them to school.But I've been writing more blog post this week to try to take my m,ind from everything

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  26. Hi, just found your blog and love how honest and real you are! I absolutely love the instagram idea, it should help us all peek into the beautiful, happy moments of everyone's lives.

  27. I'm a newer reader and seeing this for the first time. I can't even tell you how much this touched me.